The voice within me

Every now and then, things happen and some of them simply tear me up. But it seems I'm strong enough to put the pieces back together and start again. Better, more determined and more confident. Sometimes, I feel like the scars are never going to disappear and maybe they are actually not, but every single one of them reminds me that "if it doesn't kill you, it will make you stronger"...and I feel so proud of myself. Just until the next breakdown, when I start it all over again. I suppose there are things I forget and I'll never learn for good, so from time to time I need to remember...I need new wounds, so I can spend a little more time taking care of them...of myself. Even if it hurts, even if the pain feels almost unbearable at times.Even if I know that some of them are never going to become scars and the pain will still linger.

"What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again." (Grey's Anatomy)