The voice within me

I need to stop making plans and not respecting them. I need to set some goals, some real goals and work hard in order to achieve them. And I will.

Every day I hear people complaining. I complain. Every single day. People don't even listen to each other. We don't have conversations anymore, 'cause we don't listen to the people around. We just wait for our turn to talk, to say our problems out loud, to make our voices heard. Nobody's more important than we are, nobody's got bigger problems than we have so by no means should anybody interrupt us.
And I think that, subconsciously, we are aware that the person in front of us doesn't listen to us either. However, it's just a little bit more comfortable to talk in front of a real person than in front of the mirror, 'cause that person has also got problems, has also got weaknesses and flaws, that person is as imperfect as we are...and that's comforting. Very comforting. Because this way we are sure we won't be judged. We usually encourage one another, we offer and ask for support, we seek approval and hope that if we aren't the only ones who've made mistakes, this means we are not as guilty as we feel, we are not as bad as we feel and this way...we can go on with our lives...our superficial, senseless lives. And we call this friendship. We call it friendship...how ironic and...and deceitful...!


OK. That was a pessimistic approach. This doesn't mean I don't believe in friendship, and people we really care about and who really care about us, and who are there for us and we are there for, too. I do believe. Cause no matter how hard we try to be strong and not care and keep distance... we need to have people to love and be close to. That's how it is. That's how we humans are. And, personally, I like this, even if we get hurt sometimes.

I'll finish this post with a quote from "Grey's Anatomy":

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."